“You see, the problem is that everyone in this world is trying to teach some kind of lesson; how to survive, or how to get a successful job or how to look desirable. Good people who care about you spend valuable time trying to better every aspect of you, to fill every crack in your character and stitch every dangling end. What they don’t do is sit down and put their hand on your back and tell you how pain doesn’t tingle up your sides or numb your bones, rather it hits you hard like an unexpected car accident. They don’t explain how hearing someones name can feel like a dagger in your stomach, dragging and ripping every seam you scrambled to tie together. They don’t tell you that pain exists everywhere else just as much as it exists in the mind, and rather than feeling comforted, you just want them to remove their hand and retreat their words because the pain only gets louder when you give it a voice.”—Unknown (via sadboyghost)
I don’t like captions on my photos - leaves that bleed juice when torn in half loose door handles that exist only because their wood has worn away leaking thermos of lukewarm water, miniature puddles on table tops sirens in my head the ensuing silence after the mirror has smashed: pianos with dust, your (my) face turned away sulky breaths on sodden floors, shadows out of place.
“Suddenly I had a flash of insight: I am a monster, I realized, a monster that wants to stalk through the woods, free and alone, and cannot even bear so much as the touch of a branch on its skin.”—Marlen Haushofer, The Loft (via batarde)
“Some days I woke up and got out of bed and brushed my teeth like any normal human being; some days I woke up and lay in bed and looked at the ceiling and wondered what the hell the point was of getting out of bed and brushing my teeth like any normal human being.”—It’s Kind of a Funny Story (Ned Vizzini)
“'I, too, am going to go away soon,’ she says, ‘I am weary and weary of my weariness. Everything is beginning to be a little empty and full of leave-taking and melancholy and waiting.”—Erich Maria Remarque (via clairvoyant—-disease)
How good must it feel to know that you will never have to expect anything less, never have to lower your standards, because that person will always give you more than enough, more than you ever needed or wanted, so that the only negative consequence that you can think of is the potential guilt…